You Are My Forever Love

I listened to your message one more time

Every time I think I am fine…

Your voice filled with anger, not love

A fit of rage I know little of…

Passionate are your words

As you speak of absence of your love?

You say I need counseling

To forget this love thing

It’s in my head…

 you say…

How can I still feel this way?

The texts, the emails, voicemails too

All expressions of the love I feel for you

And yes those videos …

They trip you up

Doing exactly what I want them to do.

Forcing you to remember you loved me too.

I’ve got unfinished business you see

This love between you and me

I desire or want no one else

You are the only one for me

And for once this

I clearly see.

So no counseling

Can fulfill this need

To hold you in my arms for eternity

SP2017

A December Night

It was a December night

A dance ensued

Your daddy Sang

Your sister too

As we danced the night away

A two step favorite was playing

Under the Boardwalk I recall

You drew me close

As you turned me around

Displaying our love for all

Beaming I was that night

As all the old ladies looked on

Memories of their youth apparent

In their eyes as then wondered

How did those two learn that dance?

They're too young to have had that chance?

In your living room you taught me so

Showed me gently where my my foot should go

We practiced day and night

For this very wonderous sight

Young lovers would dance tonight

And all would see and feel a fabulous sight

Flawless movement on the floor

Endless love with me you show

As you dance the night away

Your life long partner you would say

Stand By Me would soon come on

And in your arms I danced along

Our magic love was in the air

For all to feel who were near

Total bliss we would share

Endless love you whispered in my ear

Written 8-5-15

Last Night I Dreamed of You

Last night I dreamt of you

The you I knew

Tender moments

We would share

Doing silly things

Just to be near

Babysitting our siblings

Looking at baby names

Hoping to one day to share this things

In our new beginnings

Last night I dreamed of you

The you that I once knew

You held my hand so tenderly

You smiled so sweetly

We walked along a familiar road

You talked in friendly tones

You smiled and winked at me

It seemed our love for was meant to be

Last night I dreamed of you

The you that I once knew

You whispered in my ear

That you would always be there

We played our lovers game

Whispering sweet nothings

As you called my name

Our friendship so sincere

Our love eternally there

Last night I dreamed of you

And upon waking I knew

The you that I once knew

Would forever be true.

8-3-15

My Tears

I climbed into the shower

To hide my tears

So many years of loving you I thought

This shower could take years

Your words played in my mind

I asked God for mercy 

For no deeper love I could find.

Your love means everything

It's loss heartbreaking

Stolen moments with you I shared

Lasting love...how much we both cared

Never wanting to hurt anyone

Stealing moments when we can

A day with you as we do

Staring into your eyes

Laying there wanting you near

My how the time flies...

Between chores 

Between meals

Between conference calls

And those darn trainings...

Moment that lasted years

Whispers of love 

Now turn to tears

Loving you is all I do

Whenever I spend time with you.

It doesn't take much you would say

To have me respond in that way

Oh how I wished you would stay

Loving me every day

Why has our God taken you away?

Breaking my heart in this way.

To honor us

I will no longer cry

For in my heart our memories lie

When you took your love from me

You did not only take your love from me

You took your friendship too

For four years of loving me

You swore this you would never do

We shared spit you'd say

I love you ugly every day

Every spare moment we were there

Compelling love we would share

Your love for her I dared not touch

For in my heart I loved you as much

A twist of fate kept us apart

But you remained forever in my heart

Today you tore yourself from me

Breaking my heart

Setting yourself free

Destroying, denying any love for me

Your silence hurts excruciatingly 

Paralyzing pain is what you left me

I Wish I Knew....

I wish I knew if you were traveling

For you have been silent as the sea

With no waves rushing 

Breaking against the shore

Aching to be with me

I wish I knew you missed me

As much as I am missing you

With aching heavy heart

Longing to connect with you

I wish you really loved me

As much as I love you

Then missing me won't be my wish

It would be your reality

When dawn has faded into dusk

And all the noise a hum

In the stillness of my heart

My love will overcome 

When you close your eyes tonight

Will your heart long for me?

The loving oh so tender

The kisses oh so very sweet

I wish I knew if you were traveling

Then your silence would be understood

Knowing that you would reach out

The first moment you could

I wish I knew you loved me

As much as I love You

Then missing you would be worth it

For you would be missing me too

What I Know...SPandCJ

A hug

A hello

A warm and fuzzy glow

Your face

Those eyes

Your smile

Our warm embrace

Decades of sadness

Melt away

No tears.

Conversation

Mellow

Serene

Fleeting memories

Dare not invade

This scene

Our taste equivalent 

Our time expedient.

Our words

Endearing

But not telling.

Goodbye

Long and enduring

Love endless

Overflowing.

Our day

Perfect

In every way.

What else can

This girl say?

Her heart melts

For her CJ.