A December Night

It was a December night

A dance ensued

Your daddy Sang

Your sister too

As we danced the night away

A two step favorite was playing

Under the Boardwalk I recall

You drew me close

As you turned me around

Displaying our love for all

Beaming I was that night

As all the old ladies looked on

Memories of their youth apparent

In their eyes as then wondered

How did those two learn that dance?

They're too young to have had that chance?

In your living room you taught me so

Showed me gently where my my foot should go

We practiced day and night

For this very wonderous sight

Young lovers would dance tonight

And all would see and feel a fabulous sight

Flawless movement on the floor

Endless love with me you show

As you dance the night away

Your life long partner you would say

Stand By Me would soon come on

And in your arms I danced along

Our magic love was in the air

For all to feel who were near

Total bliss we would share

Endless love you whispered in my ear

Written 8-5-15

Last Night I Dreamed of You

Last night I dreamt of you

The you I knew

Tender moments

We would share

Doing silly things

Just to be near

Babysitting our siblings

Looking at baby names

Hoping to one day to share this things

In our new beginnings

Last night I dreamed of you

The you that I once knew

You held my hand so tenderly

You smiled so sweetly

We walked along a familiar road

You talked in friendly tones

You smiled and winked at me

It seemed our love for was meant to be

Last night I dreamed of you

The you that I once knew

You whispered in my ear

That you would always be there

We played our lovers game

Whispering sweet nothings

As you called my name

Our friendship so sincere

Our love eternally there

Last night I dreamed of you

And upon waking I knew

The you that I once knew

Would forever be true.

8-3-15

My Tears

I climbed into the shower

To hide my tears

So many years of loving you I thought

This shower could take years

Your words played in my mind

I asked God for mercy 

For no deeper love I could find.

Your love means everything

It's loss heartbreaking

Stolen moments with you I shared

Lasting love...how much we both cared

Never wanting to hurt anyone

Stealing moments when we can

A day with you as we do

Staring into your eyes

Laying there wanting you near

My how the time flies...

Between chores 

Between meals

Between conference calls

And those darn trainings...

Moment that lasted years

Whispers of love 

Now turn to tears

Loving you is all I do

Whenever I spend time with you.

It doesn't take much you would say

To have me respond in that way

Oh how I wished you would stay

Loving me every day

Why has our God taken you away?

Breaking my heart in this way.

To honor us

I will no longer cry

For in my heart our memories lie

When you took your love from me

You did not only take your love from me

You took your friendship too

For four years of loving me

You swore this you would never do

We shared spit you'd say

I love you ugly every day

Every spare moment we were there

Compelling love we would share

Your love for her I dared not touch

For in my heart I loved you as much

A twist of fate kept us apart

But you remained forever in my heart

Today you tore yourself from me

Breaking my heart

Setting yourself free

Destroying, denying any love for me

Your silence hurts excruciatingly 

Paralyzing pain is what you left me

I Wish I Knew....

I wish I knew if you were traveling

For you have been silent as the sea

With no waves rushing 

Breaking against the shore

Aching to be with me

I wish I knew you missed me

As much as I am missing you

With aching heavy heart

Longing to connect with you

I wish you really loved me

As much as I love you

Then missing me won't be my wish

It would be your reality

When dawn has faded into dusk

And all the noise a hum

In the stillness of my heart

My love will overcome 

When you close your eyes tonight

Will your heart long for me?

The loving oh so tender

The kisses oh so very sweet

I wish I knew if you were traveling

Then your silence would be understood

Knowing that you would reach out

The first moment you could

I wish I knew you loved me

As much as I love You

Then missing you would be worth it

For you would be missing me too

What I Know...SPandCJ

A hug

A hello

A warm and fuzzy glow

Your face

Those eyes

Your smile

Our warm embrace

Decades of sadness

Melt away

No tears.

Conversation

Mellow

Serene

Fleeting memories

Dare not invade

This scene

Our taste equivalent 

Our time expedient.

Our words

Endearing

But not telling.

Goodbye

Long and enduring

Love endless

Overflowing.

Our day

Perfect

In every way.

What else can

This girl say?

Her heart melts

For her CJ.

I Love You Forever

I thought I'd always love you

Because our love is true

I thought we'd be together

Even though at times 

You made me blue

I thought our love meant something

Something tried and true

I thought we'd love forever

When we fell in love anew

I want to hold you close

Much closer than before

I want to love you 

For fear there'll be no more

I want to close my eyes

And return to the love we know

I want this aching feeling to go

No more heartaches

No more painful tears

I want to lay within your arms

And make up for those 30 years

I need to hold you close

Gently kiss away my tears

Whisper sweet nothing in my ears

And Love away my fears

I Could Be Angry

I could be angry

Or I could be mad

I could be sad

About the love we had

Or I can be thankful

For all that we shared

And love you forever

For the memories

Locked in my head

I love you big head

I love you ugly

I love you sugar

I love you babe

Whatever I call you

They all mean the same

Terms of endearment,

Words whispered with I love,

whatever I call you

Or whatever you say

I love you forever

And I love your real name

Sweet as sugar

Sharp as a pin

Handsome as ever

Mine to love never

A gentleman

A married man

A man among men

Who held my hand

Kept me strong

When everything was going wrong

My friend

My love

My memories.

So....  I could be angry

I could be mad

But I am not sad

About the love we had.

I am thankful

For the love we share

Thankful for the memories

Locked in my head

I love you sugar

I love you ugly

I love you big head

I love you and ALL

The memories we shared.

Only Love

I endure 

For with you

I am sure

The love I feel

Is very real.

 I endure

Now more

Than before

Because this love

Feels better

Than ever 

For we continue to endure.

Distance has

Tested us

Desire

Encouraged us

Passion

Sustains us

Love, only love

Revives us

Defines us

Ensures us

To love forever more

Another Goodbye

I sat down to say good morning

Spilling greetings from my heart

I was met with disturbing images

And my head said....do not start.

Your face a joy to behold

Your eyes filled with lies

Still untold

My heart filled with love for you

My brain keeps warning 

Watch what you do

This love is dangerous

Too dangerous for even you.

So my Goodmorning

Became goodbye

As I shut my computer screen

And cried. (: 

Your Distraction

You called me a distraction

Because I invoke 

A real reaction

Feelings you want to deny

'Cause loving me is just not fly

Thought I would be another passing thing

One of those old girlfriend love fling

Thought I would let you lay up with me

Make love and then set me free

Did you forget the girl I was raised to be?

Love is the ONLY reason I do anything

You my love made my heart sing

Filling me up with the passion you bring

How could I be a passing thing?

How can I ever be a fling?

Loving you was my only dream

You are my love inspired everything