INSPIRATION

For twenty five years, I did not write a poem

Not a single word of praise

You have inspired me to reflect upon my troubled ways

I learned that the flicker of love

I kept deep in my heart

Only needed a spark from you

                                              For the fire within to start              

I have tried so hard to forget you

I have prayed your love away

I have asked God to forgive me

For all I did not say

To keep me strong when I let you walk away

On that God forsaken day

Oh God please save me

My heart is breaking still

Why must I still suffer

For going against your will

I have too much at stake

Too many hearts will break

I thought I ‘d paid the price

To live my life with sacrifice

Too many nights I’ve cried

Because you were not at my side

A friend was in my bed

But you were in my head

I suffered for your loss

I underestimated the cost

I long to smile again

A smile from deep within

A smile that only you can bring

A smile of Love created without sin

Over time I learned to love

That friend that I had married

But in my heart I buried

The love for you I carried

I do not know how this will end

I am happy God has claimed you

He has worked hard in my life

He has saved me from a life of strife

Over time he has eased my pain

He showed me that my love was not in vain

Without the struggles we’ve been through

We could not be born anew

Oh how I long to hold you

To kiss your tears away

To let you know how sorry I am

To not have listened to my heart

To trust that what I was feeling

Was right from the very start